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| I can't really explain how I feel at this present moment, but I did find songs that describe how I hope to feel someday. The longing inside my heart has grown to feel much deeper than it's used to. These songs bring me to tears no matter when I listen to them. The first is a Japanese version of the song 'So Close' from the movie 魔法にかけられて.
あなたと二人で踊れば
If you dance with me,
忘れてしまう何もかも
You'll forget everything.
見つめ合う
I meet your gaze,
ただそれだけで胸がときめく
But that only makes my heart pound.
時は流れ
As time flows by,
夢の色あせ
Dreams fade away.
消えていったどこかへ
Where do they go to?
今あなたの腕の中で
But now in your arms,
夢とまた出会えた
I'm finding my dreams again.
抱きしめたい
And I want to hold you close,
愛をこめて
With love.
あと少しで手が届くのに
Although our hands find each other for a short time,
やっと本当の幸せに
I can say I'm truly happy.
このままいつまでも
I hope this will be forever,
ずっと、一緒に、痛いのに
Always together, although it's painful.
あなたのいない世界なんで
A world without you
悲しすぎる
Is full of sadness.
もうあと少しで手が届くのに
Although our hands find each other for an even shorter time.
やっと本当の幸せに
I can say I'm truly happy.
二人で見た美しいの夢
The two of us together like a beautiful dream
どうかまだ覚めないんで
So please, don't wake me up just yet...
And of course, a cover song from Adele originally sand by Bob Dylan.
When the rain is blowing in your face
And the whole world is on your case
I can offer you a warm embrace
To make you feel my love
When the evening shadows and the stars appear
And there is no one there to dry your tears
I could hold you for a million years
To make you feel my love
I know you haven't made your mind up yet
But I will never do you wrong
I've known it from the moment that we met
No doubt in my mind where you belong
I'd go hungry, I'd go black and blue
I'd go crawling down the avenue
No there's nothing that I wouldn't do
To make you feel my love
The storms are raging on the rolling sea
And on the highway of regret
The winds of change are blowing wild and free
You ain't seen nothing like me, yeah
I could make you happy, make your dreams come true
Nothing that I wouldn't do
Go to the ends of the earth for you
To make you feel my love
To make you feel my love | | |
| I'm definitely at a point in my life where I can handle bad news. But bad news is still bad news. This whole semester I fought back my own feelings, kept them at bay. I felt that I should obey the rules rather than follow my heart. Everyone I confided my feelings to said that was a great idea. But now, I find out that the rules have already been broken and everyone else seems to be alright with it. How does that make any sense? I feel that I shouldn't fight for anything I want anymore. Because when I fight, I never get what I want, but when I don't fight I still get nothing. For me, everything seems to happen by luck. And right now, luck isn't on my side. My disappointment in people has grown ten fold, but the disappointment in my heart has grown to large to even imagine.
I was told that I tend to put all my eggs in one basket. And lately, all it's given me was disappointment after disappointment. At the same time, no one is on my side, or even seems to understand how I feel. Even if I could explain how I feel about a person I like, it's not a person I like enough. Because when I like someone, the feeling I get inside is so indescribable. But sadly, the disappointment is just as bad. As I was saying though, I think it's only fair that I focus on only one person at a time, because how would you feel if you're interested in someone and their attention is else where? But I guess life isn't fair, but I still feel that it's right to play by the rules.
I'm not sure why I even why I let myself believe that miracles could happen for me. Well I guess dreams are only meant for sleeping, and wishes never come true. | | |
| There was a time that I dreamed. I dreamed of flying, of soaring, of reaching the impossible. At the time, I also dreamed that love was undying, and that there was forgiveness within people. There was so much hope in me back then. Hope that everything would turn out alright. Hope that I would get to experience everything I've wanted in life. Back then, life was worth living.
But there are those that try to hurt you. They speak words that make you feel safe. But the safety is just an illusion they used to tear your hopes and dreams apart. Where they spit on you and denounce everything they've ever promised. These are the people that I used and wasted my own dreams on. These are the people that took my dream and made it into a casual fling that would never turn into anything. A dream that was shattered before my very eyes.
Though every now and again, I still dream that I may have a chance. That maybe my dreams could come true and that I could be with the one that I dreamed about. But then I realize that there are some dreams that were never meant to be. And it hurts every day knowing that something you wanted, wished for, dreamed for, was stepped on by someone who said they were your friend.
And now I have to pretend, living every day like it's an ordinary day, like nothing ever happened. Like our arguments never happened. Like our friendship never happened. Thanks to you, you killed some of my hopes and dreams. And it makes me think if hopes and dreams are really just hopes and dreams. | | |
| I wake up every day, it's the same routine. There's never really anything special. I can talk with friends, and go to class. I go to learn about things that I love and hate. I try to make sense of my life everyday. Like I'm trying to walk through a jungle, but there's no one there to help me out.
What can I do?
What should I do?
Is it all even worth it?
Am I making the right choices?
I go to work, chill out and have a blast. But is that really something I can to do for the rest of my life? Is that even something worth my time? I question every minute of my life, in hopes of being able to find an answer to all this confusion. I try to put this out of my mind, and say to myself, "Everything is going to be alright." But still everyday I say a little prayer in hopes that some day someone will answer. So I live every day as if it could be my last, because you never know when you'd be up in the sky walking through those golden gates or sitting in pure bliss on a lotus flower. I try now to see the beauty in life, to appreciate everything and everyone. My friends, my family, and everything else that is in my life. But no matter how happy I may feel, there's always that missing piece that makes me want to scream.
Then one day I see you walk by and my heart starts to flutter. And for a moment I feel like I'm walking in space. I'm not sure what to think. It's like being happy on a sunny day, and I'm sure a lot of people know how great a warm and sunny day can make them feel. But as great a sunny day can be, the sky is still blue, and that's something I never want to be, because I could be with you. I could write a thousand letters and never be able to find the right words to describe how I feel about you. You're that missing piece, no question about it. So every time I make a wish, I wish for you. Because I know, life more is beautiful with you by my side. | | |
| Alright, it seems to me many people lack the capacity of understanding of what is acceptable to do in public. Of course in this new age of smart phones (mainly iPhones), I think people are starting to lose a sense of what is socially acceptable in public.
Phone Etiquette
1. Talking in public.
Yeah, its okay to talk while you're walking. As long as you're still paying attention to wear you're walking and not being a total airhead and just tune the rest of the world out. If you seriously can't walk and talk, you're stupid.
Another problem with talking in public, is talking LOUDLY in public. Seriously, no one wants to hear how big of a bitch this girl was last night while you are waiting in line for your Starbucks. In actuality, you're the bitch. And everyone around you thinks you're a bitch too. So just shut up.
2. Texting
Oh God Texting. I admit that I love to text. These quick little snippets of conversations help make the day go by faster. But there is a point where enough is enough. For example, you're on a date. It's hands down impolite to text. While you're in a movie. It's impolite to text. In the middle of class or a meeting, it's impolite to text in addition to being annoying. While you're in a middle of a conversation with another person, where you have to stop the conversation you're having FACE TO FACE in order to text back another person (this only matters if it keeps happening more than once during the same conversation). IT'S RUDE! RUDE! RUDE! And trust me, I know a lot of people that do this. People want your attention, the best way to give that to them is by looking at them. Not giving them the top of your head.
Of course there are exceptions. For example texting back the person just to inform them that you are currently busy and that you'll call/text later. Unless you're in class, the people around you won't mind too much.
Another point to address is the repeat text. You know someone is crazy when they send you a text message more than once. Granted sometimes your service provider is a piece of shit and may occasionally sent the same message multiple times or may have not even sent your original message. No matter what the case is, it is not okay to resend your message. Think to yourself, may that last message you sent was a conversation killer, or perhaps the other person may be preoccupied with something else and may not be able to respond (ie. shower, pooing, making out, etc.). So avoid having people call you crazy by, NOT resending your text messages.
3. Ringback tones
I must admit that I am guilty of having a ringback tone. For all intents and purposes they are alright to have. But seriously, not everything sounds amazing through an earpiece of a phone. I am actually able to set when and to whom my ringback tone plays for. And I take advantage of that. My ringback song only plays from 5pm to 8am during the weekdays and all day during the weekends. I do this because, you don't want your potential employer or boss to call and have Lil' Wayne say that he wants to lick you like a lollipop. That would just be bad news bears.
4. Phone Key Tones
This is quite broad but it is in most regards to iPhone users. You know when you text, or dial, or do anything that involves the keyboard, and you hear that tap tap tap. Yeah that's annoying. You need to put that thing on silent or I will toss your phone off the top of the nearest building. I don't care who you're texting so much, just as long as I don't have to hear that damn taping noise when I'm trying to do my homework, or when I wake up, or when I watch TV, or... yeah you get the point. I personally shut off all key tones because I'm sure people would love to hear a swoosh sound every time I slide my phone or that tap tone every time I type a message.
5. Use of Headsets
Unless you are an important business man or driving in California (or driving in general), you need to use one. But when you're just walking around, it's pointless to have one. Yeah you think you look cool with your bluetooth headset flashing like you're at a industrial rave, but when you look like you're talking to yourself, you look like a total nut job (especially if you use your hand/arms when you talk). So don't be lazy and just hold the damn phone to your face, just like everyone else. Please be sure to still follow the advice from #1.
These are just a few things I hope you consider the next time you use your phone. It's okay to love your phone. Just do it in moderation.
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